Memories

Expectations hurt. When we expect from others we are bound to be disappointed  but when we expect from our own self we grow.  The relationships we make have a big role to play.  What to expect and from whom to expect?  The answer lies within. There's something beyond everything and that's what needs to be looked for. All our needs find satiation when there is contentment. Let's be a  seeker and discover ourselves. When real search for the real begins our expectations turn inward and we start marching with faith and courage. Desires need to come to an end or atleast we can start with trying to minimize our desires which one day hopefully would no longer be there. The whole scenario is about expecting the unexpected on our way towards the infinite.Hope we get there soon and realize our own self to be free in true sense.

My thoughts are of various shades. We share an intimate relationship. This is very personal and a unique one.  The positive one's give me courage to face the challenges that life throws but the negative ones are always ready to leave the shore and sail in the ocean of my mind and thats when the real test starts.I always have a choice and that needs to be wise. These negative one's play tricks on me but if I ignore  they feel unattended and  leave.  On this journey of life both kinds  need to  bid farewell and let me  be free in the quest of my own self which will finally guide me to the ultimate reality which is the abode of all consciousness.

Love is the real essence of everything around and within. It's not easy to love and embrace all that what belongs to the object of our love but when there is acceptance then it's holistic. We often find ourselves longing for love as it is the basic need of every living being. It makes possible what may seem impossible.Love for the sake of love is  real love. Sometimes I wonder how love is talked about at length and still longing is all that remains. We must pour our heart out and then there is space for love to fill in. Inner beauty is all that's needed to make it all happen. Living a life that is content and that's having enough love to support one's entire existence. There is a source deep inside which is an endless ocean of love. We just need to dive in to experience it ourselves and to make it available to others. It all begins within. 

There is this me inside of me which talks to me very often. The conversations between us have a wide range and the topics talked about are of various shades. Sometimes the conversations are happy, some other times  sad. But it all aims at feeling  sorted at last. At times it's about introspection whereas judging others also doesn't come last ,but whatever it is the dialogue is a must have in order to get that clarity which is the only essential one longs to have. Conversations are important and must not stop as life is full of questions which make us wander within our thoughts. 

I was born in a small town. A small city which was quiet in its own right.Every second house belonged to somebody pretty close and there was a relationship with the vendors crossing by the roads.Weekends were full of excitement as my grandmother's home was my favorite place offering limitless enjoyment. My dad had a two wheeler which was generous enough to accommodate four of us- mom,dad me and my younger brother.The rides on the scooter were so much fun and those late night ice cream shop visits were mandatory while coming back from my grandmother's house cum our permanent tourist destination. A South Indian restaurant was a happy place for our four people kingdom. When I recall the olden times it makes me wonder how mom and dad did it all with so much ease and perfection There was a coaching at a walking distance from my house which helped children pick up the profession of their choice. I too studied there but my efforts were not enough to get me through the entrance test an